Yesterday I succeeded in pretending I no longer care about someone. Fact of the matter is, he probably didn't even notice. You see, it was his birthday and i successfully didn't wish him a happy day.
I know it sounds really childish and petty. However, to me, birthdays are kind of a big deal. It means so much to me when people remember. Unfortunately I'm sure that's not the case with him.
I guess what it boils down to is that I'm well on my way of walking out of his life. I want to know that I meant something to him. I want him to miss me, to know that our friendship meant that much to him.
Not just him... but with the 4 friends I've lost this year. Maybe everything was just a waste of time. But, if I meant something, and they're still getting along just fine, I'd really like to know the secret.... to being ok after someone who was a huge part of your life is no longer a part.
I know it sounds really childish and petty. However, to me, birthdays are kind of a big deal. It means so much to me when people remember. Unfortunately I'm sure that's not the case with him.
I guess what it boils down to is that I'm well on my way of walking out of his life. I want to know that I meant something to him. I want him to miss me, to know that our friendship meant that much to him.
Not just him... but with the 4 friends I've lost this year. Maybe everything was just a waste of time. But, if I meant something, and they're still getting along just fine, I'd really like to know the secret.... to being ok after someone who was a huge part of your life is no longer a part.
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