Day 9 :: finally

I'm sorry it has taken me so long. I promise I'm going to finish this blog challenge... Even if it takes me 18 years lol

shout out.....positive thoughts.....healing energy....and an abundance of prayers to my twin, confidant, and favorite singer who is in the hospital. Aaron, i love you! And I'm definitely coming to see you in the morning when i get off work.

Well the world was supposed to end on Saturday....obviously it didn't. One thing it did do was get a lot of people talking about the rapture. Was I worried the world was going to end? No. The bible says that no man knows the day nor the hour...but that brings me to another thought....

Tonight Vita and I went to Starbucks while we were there a tornado warning was put into effect. Tornadoes were being spotted from Davenport and headed to moline. ....Where we were...then to the towns we live in. So we decided to stay put. I said what if god came back with this storm...a day after the prophesy....like - hah joke is on you! God does have a sense of humor. Vita was jokingly making dying confessions. I asked her if her heart was right. Now I'm going to be honest and say i silently asked myself the same question. Really....the answer scared me.

I am not a bad person....but truthfully life just gets to ya sometimes. Being involved in and close to ministry....there are times when i definitely dont agree with everything. I get frustrated and sometimes even hurt. That's been the case lately. It seems like I've had the worst attitude and have been too frustrated to even care. This storm helped me realize that. Im not saying things are going to get better overnight
...but im certainly going to work on it.

My inspiration is one of kirk Franklin's new songs...

Before I Die

I'm feelin' real good cuz it ain't over
Right before I die I gotta live
Live out my dreams so
I can be what
He planned for me not just for me but
so they can see much more of Him
and less of right before I die I gotta
Love my enemies,
forgive the past and set 'em free
so I can free
free up the things
every blessing God has for me
see it's for me, not just for you
I had to learn from what I've been through
I can't go through that way again
be hurt by you that way again
It's not the end

[Chorus:]
I used to be afraid to die
I used to be afraid to try
cause I was too afraid of knowing
what failing looked like
but the son came to give me life
now I feel like I can touch the sky
I'm ready if you're ready
Get up and live right now,
right now, right now right now, right now, right now, right now Get up and live right now, right now, right now right now, right now, right now, right now

Right before I die I gotta Change
change how I think
change how I speak
I'm not the same
so when I speak you don't hear the pain
no longer weak with no one to
right before I die I gotta
Become more like you
to count the cost
cause I was lost
that's why I praise you
you're the only God
I don't know what they do

But I know..

[Chorus]

So the next time you think of me
and you wonder where I would be
without each blessing that helped me to see
Life is much more than things
and how you live is more than how you sing
when I die what did I really mean,
I mean Say what? Say what now?
As we proceed, to give you what you need
somebody, anybody, everybody, scream

[Chorus]

Lord have mercy
I told you it ain't over for you
I see you livin
I see you makin' it

Right before I live I have to die.


OOOOOK

day nine: what do you want to be remembered for?

If you have read any of my other posts...you probably already
Know the answer.

I Want to be remembered for being a positive change/influence in someone's life.

I want to be remembered for being a cheerful person. Someone who was passionate.

Another Break Blog : Day 8

How do you stay entertained when you're snowed in?

Lol I'm not sure if entertained is the best word, but I definitely stay busy.

I pretty much do everything I never have time for:

catching up on laundry
Cleaning
Reading agood book :)
enjoying a nice bubble bath
catching up with a friend: unfortunately I'm terrible at keeping in touch.


Weeeeeelllll its Wednesday...if you don't know what that means, it means I go to church, have cor practice, then go to Mcdonalds with Lance, Vita, and Laurie.

We have kinda become our own little support group. Inspiring each other to make goals and live out our dreams. Maybe that sounds a little cliche, but it really has worked. :)

Tonight Vita preached her first message in HER spanish lol . She said "abren sus bibliotecas! No, wait! Bibilias." We're pretty sure she meant biblias :)

What is a life with out friends? A dull one that's for sure! I may not have the most friends....but I'm certainly blessed with a few great friends!

Day 7

How do you stay focused on a task?


I pretty much just make up my mind and keep the end goal in sight.



I'm working my second night :) I made a new friend. This is my break.

By the way.... I haven't given in and texted....or done any chasing :) ya'll should be proud! Let me tell you, it has been hard! I think the worst part is realizing there hasn't been any communication. It would seem that maybe I'm not as important to him as I thought I was.....or what he was to me. Maybe its time to realize I deserve better and move on....easier said than done tho.

Speaking of moving on, its time for me to get back to work!

Much love,
Steph

Day 6

 Are you stressed out right now? If so, about what? If not, how do you control the things going on in your life?

Hmmm. I really don't think I'm stressed right now. I mean: 

• I've paid off all my debt
• I passed my state tests
• I recently got a job
• I've accepted that sometimes people move on and walk out of your life

I don't really think anyone can control the things going on in their life. Really, things happen, and the only thing that matters is your response to it, and what you learn from it.

The hardest thing to do is accept things, but I've learned that the sooner you accept circumstances the better off you are.

• Bad things happen.
• People hurt you.
• You get rejected.
• Thing don't go according to plan.

Welcome to the Human Race  (the only race where there's no winner. we all meet the same judgement at the end of it)

on the upside of it though,

• Good things happen.
• Special people can show up at opportune times and help heal open wounds.
• You can make a difference in someone else's life.
• God's plan ends up being WAY better than our plan.

I guess that's the only way I make it through those trying and stressful times. There is always a silver lining.

Romans 8:28 And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to His purpose.

Matthew 6:33 But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and His righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you.







Day five

Do you prefer to talk, text, or a different method of communication?

Wow....umm I love texting, but only because its convenient and I can multitask lol.
But in reality I much prefer talking: in person, or on the phone. I think its a sign of commitment, it shows that you're willing to actually take the time to talk to someone. It is much more meaningful

On a side note: I am currently at work. Lol don't fresh out im on an hour break. Writing in this blog is what is keeping me awake. So if at any point I start rambling: you can figure out why. I'm in the process of eating stake lucky charms, drinking cold coffee, and listening to Kirk Franklin. :) its a good break :)

30 minutes left on break....what to talk about....

I found out last night that my friends in Argentina : who got married while we were there : Carole and Jose are going to be parents! I'm so excited for them! The baby is due in January. I told Laurie now we HAVE to go to meet the baby!

I've been following Patti Stanger on Twitter. She has really been talking about not chasing guys, but making them chase you... So I thought about it and it may seem like I'm the one doing the chasing : texting first, calling first, making plans to hang out...well today marks the end of that. Do you think that's acceptable? Is it too much for me to ask to seemimportant to a person? Or am I just being stubborn wanting a guy to text first?

Let me know your thoughts!

<3